Lately, my studying trend seems to be wavering today, more on the down side perhaps. My focus starts to astray from my main goal, which is to be able to survive the University standards, and prevent being expelled.
I don’t understand anymore. Lately, there are only tidbits of the lessons I learned from Univiersity still retain inside my head. What is this? Is this what it means to forget? Is this what it means to become a slacker? A flunk?
No, I musn’t stray. I must put all my focus on studying, and not on other things. I must forget my other life, as a fanfiction writer, a net surfer, an anime fanatic. I must remember that I’m still a student, a university student who wishes to finish his education so that he now live at peace from all the hardwork experienced while being a learner. For now, I must abandon my other life.
And so, this change of focus continues as a struggle inside of me, between my life on the Net and my life on the Earth…
