The first day of every week at school feels like rush hour. After a 2-day vacation, doing nothing but relax either at home or somewhere else other than work or school, going back to the productive world of work/school can be a hassle.
For one, those working on a level higher can be troublesome by traffic jams and long queues of people waiting for a ride towards their place of work. This can get pretty tiresome if the movement is as slow as a walking turtle, but can release a bit of stress on your part if it moves faster than expected.
Two, for someone who’s never been around everyone, and only enjoys the solitude in the comfort of your own private zone, having to collaborate with others can be bothersome, depending on what you’re used to.
Lastly, when you’re used to time passing by a bit fast, getting to do something other than lazying around can surprise only a few of the people, those who’re really used to letting time pass by them, and this can get them disoriented in relevance to the flow of work coming their way.
At the end of the day, people get various reactions from their bodies. Some get tired from all the demands of work/school than has been thrown in their direction, while a few of us who’ve been used to the hassles of life get by just fine.
So, as a word of advice to those lazy bums: Get used to it.
I know I should be writing a review right now, but I’m out of ideas to type about. Anyway…
Following the lead of Satoshi and Moyism, here’s my humble desk.
I know it’s not much, because unlike the most obssessive otaku’s of Densha Otoko or Genshiken fame, I don’t invest much of my money on stuff concerning my hobby. So no figurines, new DVD’s, or new manga’s being bought on online bookstores like Amazon and Barnes and Noble, or even on scarce shops outside that sells anime-related stuff. Besides, I haven’t got a self-sustaining job yet, despite the fact that I’m 19 already, legally eligible to get hired at a job, even if it’s part-time.
As a clincher, here’s my desktop wallpaper. It’s rather large (1024 x 768) so I apologize in advance to those dial-up users who would be looking at the picture.
Well, I gotta go and start writing some reviews today!
Man, it’s been a long time since I held a writing pen. It was like last year that I finally saw my creative talents getting wasted, due to the time I spend it more at school.
Back then, I was refreshing my idea since I took up writing 9 years ago, when I first thought of writing stories. Being a newcomer in the writing scene, most of my writings were fairly short, deviod of any coherent plot, or simply of the type that you would see with movie directors. Yes, I was writing script stories back then.
As I read more and more of the stories I see on the Internet, I became more and more interested in further enhancing my skills in writing. With a PC and keyboard, instead of pen and paper, I began composing them on Microsoft Word, story after story, page after page, seeing if I can further perfect the way I handle and tell stories. With fresh ideas running through my head, I was beginning to feel confident that I could do better.
That confidence that was in me was slowly reroding when I stepped into the world of College. I wasn’t as enthusiastic as before as I was trying to compose stories like it was back in those days. Writer’s block was becoming more of a nuisance than a mre obstacle. By then, I was slowly agonizing in my mind, about how I could compose those ideas tha keep popping in my head during unexpected times, like when I was setting my brain on studying a big book on Zoology. My mind kept diverting its attention from writing to reading, and it’s confusing me. And it became worse further…
… when I set my sight on becoming an engineer. Since studying in engierring demands less need for comprehensive skills like writing and reading, I was becoming more and more absorbed, little by little, in the field. My days as a crative writer were starting to fade, like they were a childhood dream back then. Looking back at those happy moments when I was able to write freely, mostly during my free time, I kinda feel nostalgic, wishing that those days would come back to me again, so that I can feel satisfied that I’ve done something to ease myself.
So here I am, writing on his journal, taking a note from somewhere I read on the Internet recently. Writing on a journal can somehow improve your writing skills, if not much. And it became true, as time goes by, putting entries on this journal account I set up a year ago.
There you have it. This entry almost came out as a retrospective piece of sorts. So, I’ll be ending this entry with a quote.
“Plenty of people miss their share of happiness. Not because they never found it, but because they didn’t stop to enjoy it.”
Life of A Mediocre Fanfiction Writer
With FanFiction.Net back online two days ago after I posted that last entry, it’s back to writing again.
Speaking of which, I’ve been getting reviews about my story. Most of them are at most constructive, pointing out the errors I’ve made, such as sentence construction, grammar, and a few story details which I’ve missed since writing and revising them. I think it’s safe to say that the path to a fanfiction writer, particularly about a famous anime series like Love Hina, is a long winding road. You have to consider a lot of things when writing these types of stories, such as character development, scene description, story sequence, timeline alignment, and a lot of other things that are worth mentioning here and here. Credit for these sources go to Alicia Blade and Lady Starra of First Love Fics
I think that, as of this writing, I may have been guilty of not reading these sources when I started that Love Hina fic. Guess it’s time I put it on another hiatus, and this time it’s indefinite. Until I can get the story to flow smoothly and exactly that way I wanted it, I’ll be creating, editing, and revising the fics until I can get the satisfied result. Then I have to post them at irregular intervals.
Lately, my studying trend seems to be wavering today, more on the down side perhaps. My focus starts to astray from my main goal, which is to be able to survive the University standards, and prevent being expelled.
I don’t understand anymore. Lately, there are only tidbits of the lessons I learned from Univiersity still retain inside my head. What is this? Is this what it means to forget? Is this what it means to become a slacker? A flunk?
No, I musn’t stray. I must put all my focus on studying, and not on other things. I must forget my other life, as a fanfiction writer, a net surfer, an anime fanatic. I must remember that I’m still a student, a university student who wishes to finish his education so that he now live at peace from all the hardwork experienced while being a learner. For now, I must abandon my other life.
And so, this change of focus continues as a struggle inside of me, between my life on the Net and my life on the Earth…
Lately, I’ve been thinking. I was starting to accustom myself to my new schedule, which included a whole day of no classes.
Currently, I’ve got 2 pending assignments on my study table. One was from my Integral Calculus class, which my inner voice keeps telling me to “get off the computer chair and do your homework”. Guess what, it’s still nagging me.
My parents continue to encourage me to study hard so that I can fulfill my ambition (Before, it was a dream.) of becoming a successful computer programmer. That encouragement still stands with me today as I struggle to understand problems plagiung me while studying for, let’s say, Calculus. I know Mathematics is not my forte, but if I can’t live through this, my ambition will revert back to a dream, an impossible one at that.
Well, I’ve stopped dreaming when I reached 1st year college. It took me that much time to realize that you can’t live your life fulfilling a dream. You must somehow exert an appreciable amount of effort in order for that dream to become an ambition, and then reality.
Talking myself isn’t helping me much. It just makes my college life more aggraviating. Even now, I’m having difficulty typing this entry as millions of ideas start to flow out at once, too much for my hands to handle. That just exemplifies how much I’ve been babbling to myself, though I accomplish as much task as I can handle.
Well, I’m off now. Got to focus on that Calculus assignment, as well as the new entries to my already frustrating school life: Programmming and Newtonian Physics.
Gotta go! I’ll write to you some other time, OK?
